Song about a song

 

Today everything I see seems to say

Forget you not the time you went away

All the fluttering plans you made that didn't fly

And the half-baked dreams you had that didn't rise

Reflecting back on me through my tired eyes

And I overhear the wind whispering by

It's singing our song out of time

The lyrics still uncover what I hide

Oh I'm two steps in reverse with every line

And by the end of this verse…

 

You'll still be mine, still be mine....

 

'Cause I still hear our song sometimes

Still lose my head inside its lines

And I still play it to death at times

There is comfort in old lines old lines

 

And I know I tend to focus too much on the past

Glorify the things that do not last

But I can filter out how we behaved

All the lies we told the reason why we caved

This melody makes all that go away

Oh I'm two steps in reverse and we're okay

And by the end of this verse...

 

We'll still be fine... still be fine...

 

But don't call me up to choose me as your crutch

You may not realise you're asking too much of me

Even one touch of your hand on my arm

Sends me five steps behind

Humming Our Song 'gainst the storm

 

And just because I may hear our song sometimes

May lose my head inside its lines

And I might miss you to death at times

I still forget how to sing it

I've run out of lines

 

And by the end of this song...

If I can finish this song...

We're out of time...

Out of time

 

 


Wax & Wane

 

I could blame our partin’

For the fact that I’m not startin’

All my mornings at the time they ought to start

And I could summon up a sisterhood

Cry lead me out of widowhood

But that is melodrama on my part

I could blame my grieving’

On the fact that I’ve been leaving

Us behind, the ones we were when this began

But I have rose-tinted us ruby

And I’ve conjured up a new me

Who bent freely to her newly moulded man

 

But we bent and we broke and I meant what I spoke

And the blame game does not produce a winner

We went as far as we could go we had to go that far to know

That we had nowhere left to aim

And no one left to blame but

The moon’s wax and wane and the turn of the tide

The moon’s wax and wane and the turn of the tide

 

And I could blame my parents

For my vices so inherent

That I cannot shake them much as I may try

But how much have I inherited?

Or picked up since I was a kid

That nature versus nurture paradigm

I could blame wrong turns that I take

On decisions that my head makes

Then trace each error right back to my heart

And is it broken ‘cause you toyed with it

Or was it formed with a little split

That grows each year further and further apart

 

But we love and we lose and we lash-out and we bruise

And the name of the game’s just the living

We go as far as we can go we’ve got to go that far to know

That we have everything to gain

By knowing we can blame

The moon’s wax and wane and the turn of the tide

The moon’s wax and wane and the turn of the tide

 

And so I look to Karma

And if I try not to harm another

I will not be harmed by anything

If I salute the magpie knock on wood

Will I be doing any good?

Am I strung up or do I pull the string?

Will the fact I cling too tightly

To my dreams come back and bite me

Am I trying to make a science of an art?

And will the very fate I wish to woo

Be the one that I undo

By thinking I can steer this crazy cart

 

But I’ll live and I’ll learn

And `I’ll light and I’ll burn

Til the flame simmers down to a spark

I’ll go as far as I can go

I’ve to go that far to know that I have everything to gain

By knowing I can’t train

The moon’s wax and wane and the turn of the tide

The moon’s wax and wane and the turn of the tide

 

I never said it was your fault

I only wanted to blame someone

I never said it was your fault

I only wanted to blame someone

The moon’s wax and wane and the turn of the tide

 


The Tower

 

We’ve all got to play dead for our own good sometimes

Close our hearts and our minds and our eyes

And make out that we’ve crossed the lines

Into the next realm

We’ve dropped the helm

 

We’ve all got to retreat into our own wood sometimes

Where your mother, your brother and every other

Can prop you up like back in old times

 

So you climb up

To the top of the tower you descended

And don’t come back down until you are mended

And regale your loved ones with how it all ended

And you will be fine

But for now…

 

The poets’ words are contradictions in terms and you curse their rhyme

‘Cause you have ‘loved and lost’ but you feel star-crossed and you search to find

Any sweetness in your sorrow won’t see you tomorrow

Well fare thee well my first and fairest

I need time

You were the best, the dearest the one I held nearest

Every joy be thine

 

But I need to

Climb up to the top of the tower I descended

To the top of the tower I descended

And don’t come back down until I have mended

And regale my loved ones with how it all ended

And I will be fine

But for now…

 

When you’ve lost him feels like you’ve lost a limb

And when you can get another feels like ‘why bother?’

When hindsight’s review leaves you painted the fool

When cruel to be kind feels like cruel to be cruel

 

You climb up

To the top of the tower you descended

And don’t come back down until you are mended

And regale your loved ones with how it all ended

And you will be fine

But for now….

You will be fine but for now…

You will be fine but for now…

It’s gonna take time

 



Two Turtle Doves

 

We once were like two turtle doves

On a bough up in the blue

I never knew what love could do

My dear ‘til I met you

 

Here I lie on feather bed

Feathers from the wing

Oh feathers to caress me now

But none to hear me sing

It is a cold and wintry night

That I must lie alone

My turtle dove has taken flight

Oh will he ne’er come home come home

Oh will he ne’er come home?

 

And when he left my turtle dove

Sand fare thee well a while

He promised he’d return to me

If it took ten thousand miles

Ten thousand miles is a very long while

With you not here with me

And though I will lament you love

My tears you will not see

 

Oh do you see the turtle dove

Who flies from vine to vine

She’s looking for her own true love

As I have looked for mine

And do you hear the turtle dove

In yonder mulberry tree

She’s weepin’ for her own true love

As I have wept for thee

 

So fair thou art my bonny lad

So deep in love am I

That I’ll ne’er love another

‘Til the stars fall from the sky

The sea it could run dry my dear

The rocks could melt in the sun

But I’ll ne’er love another lad

‘Til all these things be done

 

Th blackest crow you’ve ever seen

Will turn its feathers white

If ever I forget you dear

The day will turn to night

And hills will fly my turtle dove

The raging billows burn

And fire will freeze and snow will rise

The elements will turn

 

And if he ne’er returns to me

My heart will stop thereof

Place two turtle doves upon my chest

To show I died for love

Two turtle doves upon my chest

To show I died for love

 

We once were like two turtle doves

On a bough up in the blue

I never knew what love could do

My dear ‘til I loved you